disbelief

Its been over a year and a half and I still feel this pain that bothers me. Its not a physical pain...well thinking of it makes mi heart hurt but its a hella deeply etched mental pain I can't seem to over come. And then you have that one friend that says he will has your back whenever you need but when you need them they are never there. What gives? Sigh I talked about it slightly with other friends but everyone says over time it will get better. Not really or maybe more time? Its consuming me but well see sometime soon