phase

phase... am i using it correctly? Either way it sounds good. Its 1am right now and there was super heavy rain. it phased me for a second or maybe i dawned on what had happened before, would it be that i be somewhere better had i not made better choices or maybe it will all end up the same way anyways? well whatever just wanted to get my feelings out, and somehow find a way to recover. funny thing is i dont even think its depression, maybe its a phase i need to move out of and find something to take my mind of. thing is what is it? what do i need to do to get out of this phase? to not let it phase me anymore.... its been hurting.